When Holly loses her virginity to Paul, a guy she barely knows, she assumes their encounter is a one-night stand. After all, Paul is too popular to even be speaking to Holly, and he happens to have a long-term girlfriend, Saskia. But ever since Holly’s mom died six months ago, Holly has been numb to the world, and she’s getting desperate to feel something, anything—so when Paul keeps pursuing her, Holly relents. Paul’s kisses are a welcome diversion, and it’s nice to feel like the kind of girl that a guy like Paul would choose.
But things aren’t so simple with Saskia around. Paul’s real girlfriend is willowy and perfect… and nothing like Holly. To make matters worse, she and Holly are becoming friends. Suddenly the consequences of Holly’s choices are all too real, and Holly stands to lose more than she ever realized she had.
I picked this book up at the library because many bookies had it in their IMMs so I thought to give it a try. What a lovely read this was! I deeply and highly enjoyed it and finished it in one night. There was something about Holly's voice that I craved to know more about and my heart went out to her.
I did find it a little frustrating when she kept coming back to Paul even when as the reader, I could clearly see he was using her and didn't feel the same. You could tell Holly was in desperate need of love and affection and it was really sad to read. I still loved the characters, especially Nils. The ending wasn't what I expected, but I liked the way she ended it since it can't be happy every time.